Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Relationships are superfluous
think though of all the things you’ve learnt about yourself
it is impossible to objectively reflect on the ‘self’
but you’re probably better or something
especially after breaking up
you’re not really mourning the loss of the other person
but frightened of yourself now
then you learn that actually it’s okay: the imperfect knowledge of the future
is maybe the most exciting thing

A list of cool stuff

  1. Haruki Murakami 
  2. Ryunosuke Akutagawa 
  3. Babes In Toyland 
  4. Horrible Bosses
  5. Cowboys and Aliens 
  6. the film festival 
  7. Bob Dylan 
  8. How To Dress Well
  9. Vivre sa vie 
  10. Horoshima Mon Amour 
  11. Sunflower and barley Vogels toast  (seriously killer man)
  12. coffee w/ one sugar
  13. cafés
  14. Agnès Varda 
  15. Les Parapluies de Cherbourg
  16. Normally Special by xTx 
  17. the holidays
  18. sun
  19. not working a lot 
  20. plaits 
  21. Welcome (vegetarian/vegan restaurant)
  22. Mum and Dad
  23. Meow beats 
  24. Log Cab rap
  25. cat moving in soon (not Simmy anymore but Toulouse still)
  26. Studying not feeling like study but fun time
  27. The Future (mine and Miranda July's)
  28. Only nice people existing in my days now. No mean people.
  29. Theo Ellsworth 
  30. Billy T movie
  31. Simon Amstell
  32. presents:
  33. letters:
  34. Stacey :::)
  35. Jackson :::)
  36. Zine fest christchurch
  37. moving cities  
  38. new hairstyles 
  39. new clothes
  40. Eamonn, Maddie, Jono, Hannah, Kit
  41. spring hats
  42. spring
  43. sitting on the porch in the sun
  44. sitting on the tiles in the sun
  45. our house in the day when it is sunny and relaxing
  46. tennis (sport/band)
  47. just wanna watch/play/listen to tennis and drink gin and tonics/whiskey/brandy/sprite zero.
  48. documentaries on Japan
  49. Japan and France
  50. waking up early and reading on the couch by the window with a cup of tea before starting my day
  51. not being afraid of people
  52. Submarine
  53. Josh
  54. sleeping

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

nz international film festival in chch concl.

So it's over. Was fun. Now I feel empty inside. Maybe that's not true. I need to do work. I have a lot of work to do. If you want you could motivate me somehow.

These are some movies I wanted to see but didn't:

  • Tabloid
  • Beginners
  • Heartbeats
  • Submarine
  • Le Havre 
  • The Trip
  • Point Blank
  • Footnote
  • Homegrown: Flights of Fantasy 
  • Love Story 
  • Le Quattro Volte 
  • Incendies

I think I did well though. Considering I also went to the movies at my work quite a bit too. And watched movies in class and at home. Feel kind of unhealthy now. Need fruit. In saying that, Eamonn 'hired' Submarine and Josh is going to come over tonight and eat nachos and ice cream and we are all going to watch it. 

Melancholia (pt2)

Went to this with my flat. It's about the end of the world. SPOLIER: The world ends. Though it's hardly unexpected with a name like Melancholia.

It's split up into two parts about the two sisters. Part One is called Justine and Part Two is called Claire. Justine gets married is really depressed. Seeing it for a second time helped identify the images at the start and what they represented. or something. Like Kirsten Dunst all tangled up in yarn and the horse sitting down and the electricity sprouting from KD's fingers.

I liked the story split up in parts. I think it made it more cohesive or allegorical: KD's inner melancholia vs MELANCHOLIA - the planet that Claire agonizes over. 

There is some pretty deep shit going on re. like depression and anxiety and stuff. Felt torn between which character I related to most. 

Made me think about how I would react to the end of the world. I don't believe in 2012 but I think this film will definitely raise fears in some people to do with that. I think I would just like eat heaps of food and pass out maybe. I was talking to Josh about how I was a lot more detached from the narrative watching it for the second time. I guess that's normal. I told him that Earth could die again and I wouldn't even care. I think he was a bit put out by that.

It's nice how KD is redeemed at the end by looking after Claire and her nephew/making magic cave. 

The sound is so so so good. Also it's v beautiful. Ate a boysenberry ice cream during this. Was real choice. 

Sunday, August 28, 2011


T54's HIT SONG, Julie K has a cool new vid made by SPAN Productions (aka Ben Spink). It's really cool. Also me, Hannah and Hilary are in it just jammin out real hard. People from overseas/other parts of NZ should watch this to see some of Christchurch as well.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Melancholia (2011) (pt1)

Directed by Lars Von Trier
Starring Kirsten Dunst, Charlotte Gainsbourg, Kiefer Sutherland, Charlotte Rampling, John Hurt 

This is part 1 because I'm going to it again on Sunday and I don't want to write about it now and spoil it for my flatmates. So NO SPOILER ALERT. I still feel compelled to write something though. 

I was planning on spending my day (yesterday) being really productive and studying/reading but Josh text me and said he had a spare ticket so I went to this with him and Hamish again. I had a cup of coffee w/ milo and changed into something better/warmer and drove to Northlands. I saw my old boss there and we had a lil chat. She's really great. 

We didn't eat snacks in the movie which was a good thing probably because I had a lot of snacks later for dinner. The film was really really good. I liked it more than the Tree of Life. So did Josh I think. My old boss said that it's all shot with handheld camera so I should watch out if I get motion sickness, but I don't so was fine. I really liked the camera work. Got real into this movie. Kirsten Dunst is sweet. Also Charlotte Gainsbourg. Like, real good. Massive babes. I suggest those in Christchurch book tickets for this on Sunday. It's at 8:15pm. I reckon it'll sell out so get in. Also to get the best experience possible, see it at the cinema because the sound is incredible. Will blow you away. Which is important for the narrative too. 

Afterwards we sat in the theatre with most of the other audience members until the credits finished just because we didn't know what to do with ourselves. We got told to leave by the people coming to clean the cinema. I walked around in a daze after that until I got home and raved to my flatmates. I'm glad that I get to see this again.

Friday, August 26, 2011

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Metropolis (1927)

Directed by Fritz Lang

I went with my friend Josh and his flatmate Hamish. I wasn't going to go but they asked me and I said yes. I think maybe I am procrastinating. I should be studying/writing essays. I only paid a child's fare because the guy at the counter was really nice and I bought tickets to Melancholia off him as well. I bought four tickets for that film and he charged me student price for all of them even though I didn't ask for all students. 
The best part in this film is the bad Maria. I like the sexy dance she does and when all the dudes check her out. That's real good/funny. Cool collage of eyes too. I ate salt and vinegar crackers during this film. Afterwards Josh and I raced to Riccarton (he won) and watched Cowboys and Aliens. It was cool: aliens and cowboys and big explosions. I got two frights and got embarrassed. I ate Maltesers and the rest of the crackers. Also had some sprite. Josh had a vanilla ice cream. Then we walked around the block because it was a really nice evening - not cold and lovely light - and it was nice to stretch my legs too. Then I went home.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

wrote a poem

antipobros. here.

The Future (2011)

Directed by Miranda July
Starring Miranda July and Hamish Linklater

This was a funny part
Um. I saw this tonight with Eamonn. It's really good. I don't want to unpick it. I want to keep it whole. I felt sad after this. But not in a bad way. I don't think. Like that the kind of sadness it evoked made me realise that that kind of sadness isn't 'sadness', but love. Or something. It's funny, because I don't believe in love like 'Love'. But love in everything. love in everyday situations/people/objects/things. It's something I've thought about for a long time. But has only been bubbling at the surface in the last couple of months/whenever I watched Everyone Says I Love You and wrote a thing afterwards. It's not bad I don't think. I find it sort of optimistic. Either that or just nothing/normal. I'm sorry this is bad and self indulgent. Just. Go see it.

Monday, August 22, 2011

The Trip (2010)

Directed by Michael Winterbottom
Starring Steve Coogan and Rob Brydon

Seems like someone said something funny. But I'm not entirely sure.

I went to the Billy T movie. It was really good. You should definitely see it. During the movie my friend Joe text me saying "do you wanna see the trip tonight?" or something like that. Those may not have been the actual words. I said sure thing sounds good. It was at 8:30pm. After the Billy T movie I went back home and checked my email and then Joe picked me up and we went out to Northlands. 

Joe was wearing jeans and a beige jacket. There was a seagull sculpture in the backseat. I asked why but I have forgotten now. He drove really safely to Northlands. I told him he should go around a corner because I could see before he could that it was clear. I told him he could trust me but he still stopped to see for himself. I guess he doesn't trust me.

We got to the movies and tried to find a park. We found a park. It was pretty easy to find a park. I think a film had finished so a lot of people were leaving. I overheard a man say "don't go to the tree of life". 

We took the escalator up to the movies. I asked especially if we could. I said "it will be the ride of your life". It was okay. Just a normal escalator ride I guess. 

We waited in line at the candy bar. There were three lines and I couldn't decide which one I wanted to queue in. A man cut in front of us but he seemed smiley and chatted to the girl working. I thought 'that's fine'. 

The Trip was sold out. Even the house seats. I asked especially. It was packed. We didn't see this movie but I suppose the massive turn out might be an indication that maybe it is quite good/funny? I dunno. You can decide that. 

We went to Countdown to get beers/wine/bananas. I got bananas. At the checkout I didn't have my drivers license on me so Joe couldn't get his wine. Seemed like a bummer for him. I didn't care because I had my bananas. The bananas were/are really good. Like a lil bit green still. I like firm bananas. I like cutting firm bananas into my porridge in the morning with a sharp knife which sounds like "thhhkkk thhhk thhhhk" and then they plop into the porridge and pile up. Then I usually mix some sugar and a lil cinnamon in it.

Thursday, August 18, 2011

times i have cried



Happy, Happy (2010)

Directed by Anne Sewitsky

(Feel like the thing I wrote about Norwegian Wood contradicted itself a lot. Sorry.)

I went to this straight after uni yesterday. I saw the coordinator guy (not sure of his actual position but coordinator sounds alright) and he recognised me and we chatted for a bit but then I got a bit scared that he was talking to me for some reason and went to the bathroom (actually needed to go though). I felt bad about that and vowed to see him after the movie but I didn't spot him. 

I bought a cuppa-T and a muffin. Earl grey and blueberry. Was the best decision of my life. 

I enjoyed the movie. I thought it was funny. Like subtly funny or something. I liked how the narrative was interrupted by these four guys singing American songs. Oh yeah, it was a Norwegian film. So the songs in english were a bit weird. Pretty funny though. I liked that it sort of depersonalised the story. Made it funnier. I like being reminded in films that it's a film and not 'real life'. 

I liked the character Kaja the best. She is that one up there ^^^^. She has a nice smile. Seemed really happy. I also liked the husband of her neighbour. This guy: 
He went on lots of runs and seemed smart and funny and cheerful. 
It was a nice film to see. Some of the bits were uncomfortable for me. I sat next to an old man who said to me: "I thought you were a boy when I sat beside you. Sorry about that". I said something like "I am fairly certain I am not a boy but I will double check when I get home". He laughed I think and then apologised two more times. 

Another thing that was uncomfortable was when Kaja's son played 'slave' with that guy's (^) adopted African son. I get that it was meant to be sort of uncomfortably funny, and it was. But I dunno. Maybe it was the fact that the mean boy didn't learn that that was wrong. He just got a new toy airplane. The adopted one did though. There was this bit where he watched a clip on youtube of President Obama making a speech. I thought that was really funny. Like he had had a massive history lesson in the month or two that he was staying there.

Yeah. It was sweet, eh.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Norwegian Wood (2010)

Directed by Tran Anh Hung
Starring Ken'ichi Matsuyama, Rinko Kikuchi, Kiko Mizuhara


 I saw this on Saturday too. After Cave of Forgotten Dreams. A big group of us went. Like 29 people or something. Heaps. I was excited about this. While we were waiting for people to come I went up to the candy bar and said that I work at Hoyts Riccarton and would I be able to get snacks for cheap. I didn't think I would be able to because I am not on the system yet (probably never) but the staff were really nice and let me get snacks for cheap!! So I got popcorn and sprite and a butterscotch ice cream. I was thoroughly happy. The happy was just oozing out of me. The happy was dripping all over the floor and making a big mess. 

I didn't really 'feel' this film or whatever. I dunno. I guess that's the hard thing about adapting a book for the screen. I think the problem was that maybe it tried to be too honest to the book and didn't necessarily capture the essence of the novel. I dunno. That sounds kinda dumb. But I think it was maybe Truffaut (maybe. that is probably wrong though and I can't be bothered looking it up right now) that said something about films based on books shouldn't necessarily include all the events that occurred but the feelings evoked. That was generally the gist of the french new wave or at least the young critics' (from the cahier du cinema) ideas about all that in the beginning.  When I watched this film that's what I thought about anyway. 

I thought that all the beginning stuff went too quickly. Like Naoko and Watanabe's relationship with Kizuko wasn't developed enough or something. I felt like I didn't really care when Kizuko killed himself. Or the only thing I cared about was that that scene was really detailed. A lot more than I expected it to be. I think that was a deliberate decision though and seemed interesting. I dunno if it really worked though. 

Real hot cast.
There was a lot of sex. Which was expected. But man. Jesus. Was pretty hot. Considering how attractive the whole cast was. But when W did it with Reiko I rolled my eyes and didn't really look. 
It was nice though and I liked anticipating things that I knew were coming up. The film didn't go into the whole Reiko 'shebang' though. I can kinda see why though. That would have made it pretty cluttered or something. Best to keep it to W fucking loads of babes the whole time, right?

Midori wears cute hairclips and has cute hair/clothes/dates
My favourite is/was Midori. She is/was v pretty/cool and had cool togs.

Also I liked the clothes. Seem cool. I was inspired or something and then I realised I could never look that cute. 

Pretty scenery. 

Snow. Could relate to that.

Getting half a bag of Maltesers afterwards. Real good. 

I still got pretty 'into' the movie though. But it's hard to decide whether knowing the book is a good thing or not to determine how well the film is received. I think maybe yes, because the book is the original. I think the trick with films based on books is to try and let them stand on their own feet though. I dunno. Just my opinion.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Cave of Forgotten Dreams (2010)

Directed By Werner Herzog 

I went to this last night by myself. I was going to Norwegian Wood at 8:30 and this started at 6:30 and finished at 8:15. I thought 'that's perfect' and it was in 3D too so was my only chance. I got there pretty early and talked to Martin and Lucan who I used to work with at the other cinema. I was the first person in the theatre and I read my book, So You Know It's Me by Brian Oliu by the light of my cellphone.

It's a documentary about the Chauvet Caves in the South of France where paintings, bones and other artifacts were discovered. Some of the cave paintings dated back 32000 years!!!!!!!! They are the oldest recorded. Also they displayed a lot of skill too. I'm not going to really get into my opinions on documentary films but basically I think it's a term used to allude to 'truth' and 'reality' however those things I don't think exist in film, only representations exist. I dunno. Documentary films are documentary films because the director/distributor chooses them to be called that.

I don't really like 3D films because they hurt my eyes and wearing double glasses hurts my face. This was really annoying in 3D. It seemed redundant. I thought that the shots in the cave were too dark and the interviews and shots outside were nauseating. I thought that maybe though this was a joke on Herzog's part or some kind of thematic artistic decision. I mean, that I've found his other films to be very reflexive (reflexivity seems to be the thing I can't steer away from at the moment so everything seems to be reflexive for me. sorry.) and this was exactly the same. 3D is used to 'heighten the cinematic experience'/'enhance immersion' or something when in fact (ironically) it does the opposite. Basically the 3D directs attention to the film's construction and artifice.

HOWEVER I feel like Herzog is pretty 'on the ball' when it comes to stuff like this and so maybe he wants to sort of align his film with it's content which is primarily discussing the construction of the artworks and their backgrounds. That's a pretty funny/clever thing if it is. 

Some of the paintings were new ones drawn over the old but the old ones were still visible. By new ones I mean they were 5000 years after the old ones but still like 27000 years ago. There were bear skulls and other bones from such and such an animal. Like bisons. There was an alter-like stone with a skull placed in the middle of it. There were sculptures too. I really liked those. The art was really beautiful. The artists had used the shape of the cave walls to create movement in their works I learnt. I thought that was cool. 

Mainly the film was about, I think, humanity and our relationship to art and nature. When I watched Grizzly Man (also by Herzog) I thought that was ultimately about humanity as well, predominantly about the human preoccupation with mortality. I thought though, given the content of that film it created an implicit, intersubjective obsession with mortality. This film is different in that it explicitly does that. I guess that's another way in which it is reflexive. Or something.

Other cool things:
  • Shots of the paintings while music plays nondiegetically and someone plays with the lighting casting shadows on the cave walls so it's like the paintings dance with the light.
  • The interviews - mainly the ex circus performer with a pony tail and cool scarf.
  • The man dressed up in reindeer skin
  • Werner Herzog's voice over.

Arrietty (2010)

Directed by Hiromasa 'Maro' Yonebayashi

I saw this on Saturday. My friend Jos was down from Auckland and wanted to hang out. I thought maybe he liked studio Ghibli films so I asked if he wanted to come. He did. Also my friends Matt and Hollan came too. The roads were really busy and so was the mall. We got to the movies and I was kind of frustrated with everything, mainly just trying to navigate my way around. I had a hot chocolate though and a cheese scone warmed up with butter and sweet chilli sauce. I felt good about that. 

We were about 2mins late for the film but we didn't miss much. Arrietty had just been playing in the garden and brought a bay leaf home for her mother. She was also 'spotted' by the boy who lived in the house she lived in. Sorry if that doesn't make sense. Arrietty is based on the Borrowers books by Mary Norton. So there you go. This film was different to the film The Borrowers though because it didn't have John Goodman or Tom Felton in it. 

I enjoyed this film a lot. There were heaps of children in the audience. I thought that maybe they would freak out because as with other Studio Ghibli films there are surreal, adult elements. But there wasn't any of that. I think I didn't like this film as much as I liked say, Princess Mononoke for that reason. My favourite parts of that movie were the freaky/magical boar scenes.  

 These films always seem to have the scary old lady. This was no exception. This lady's name was Haru. She was the maid of the house and wanted to exterminate the 'little people'. I couldn't quite understand why she actually didn't like them, I thought that if there were little people in my house I would want to take care of them. I mean, we had mice recently and although we (not me) got rid of them I still thought they were cute. Haru had this massive wrinkly face and huge mouth and she got a lot of close ups with crazy eyes. She was actually more funny than scary I think. More of a comedic character. She like, fainted and stuff and got lots of frights and over dramatic when she was tricked by Sho, the sick boy/protagonist. I think I found Haru more charming in a way than evil and I'd say the children in the audience did too. They laughed at her a lot, however my flatmates went to this the next day and said the kids in the audience were really scared. 

Sho was cool. I felt sorry for him because he was dying and his parents didn't spend any time with him. He had a cool cat though. The cat was clearly on his side and wanted to make him happy. Because Sho had a heart condition he was pretty much bed ridden except for when he ran after Arrietty. The film didn't have much suspense in it except for the bit where he is running and running and he has to go fast to see her before she sails away and he is clutching his chest and panting heavily and you think he might fall over but he doesn't. He seemed like a really calm guy and read a lot of books outside in the sun with his cat. It made me want to do that. 

The most amazing thing about this film was the animation. It was super colourful and I dunno, just dreamy. I find it funny how when the protagonist runs somewhere or climbs something they trip over or slip up or something. Seems like it would be a 'big deal' or 'narrative altering' thing in any other film but in these (s.g.) they just keep running/climbing. It's really endearing to me.

This was nice. It wasn't really amazing or anything. But would be a really good film to take a kid to. Depending on their reading ability. I think the best way to watch it would definitely be in Japanese with subtitles. Watching the dubbed English seems dumb to me. 

After the film we got powerade because everyone was hungover (except for me).

Sunday, August 14, 2011

The Tree Of Life (2011)

Directed by Terrence Malick
Starring Brad Pitt, Sean Penn, Jessica Chastain

I saw this on thursday. I thought that I would go to it by myself and that would be cool. I knew it would be a bit of a gamble just turning up and hoping for a seat because this is like 'the film to see' at this thing as it won the palme d'or at cannes. i put salt and vinegar crackers in my car so i would be all set snacks-wise straight after uni (i was also planning on seeing guilty pleasures but i didn't end up going to that). at maybe 2pm i got a text from my friend Roxie who i haven't seen in ages and she wanted to hang out so i said she should come to the movies with me. also she had just come from prague and the uk (she is a dancer, she was dancing over there) so i wanted to hear about that too and see pictures etc.

we went to the movies. I really really enjoyed this film. i thought it was beautiful. what was kind of annoying was sitting in the very front row but i adapted to that by sliding down in my seat so i was nearly lying down.

The tree of life starts with a quote from the book of Job. I have a fondness towards the book of Job because my favourite poem 'the horse' is from that. it made me want to be more well read in the book of job. the whole film was structured in the way resembled a memory. I liked the present day sequences where sean penn just sort of stood or sat around. i think he only uttered five words the whole time. it was clearly the memory of his childhood. I thought that maybe they were malick's memories. it definitely has an autobiographical quality to it. A lot of the scenes seem really symbolic but in a really intimate and personal way like the one where a child is in an attic riding a tricycle in a circle and there is a really tall man who has to stoop to avoid hitting his head on the roof.

brad pitt piggy-backing the cute lil kid who dies.
Near the start, after we learn about the death of the middle child, the film leaves the narrative of the O'Brien family into this almost silent journey through space and time. this was pretty ballsy i think. it was quite a lengthy stray from the narrative and some people who i talked to about it afterwards said that it was drawn out and boring. i really liked it though. I found it had reflexive qualities - bringing attention to the art of filmmaking as well as being visually stunning. there was also a dinosaur sequence! cool, yeah, i know. Initially i thought something like 'of course yeah, the history of evolution, the dawn of time etc', but then a relationship began to emerge between two of the dinos. One was lying on the ground it looked sick or something. another one came up to it and stood on its head, not letting it get up. it didn't hurt it or anything though. it looked around perhaps to see if there was another dino of its kind or maybe predators that would eat it, and then ran off. this integrated the power dynamic and authority of control which i think was important when the narrative kicked back into life - mirroring the relationship Brad Pitt's character has with his eldest son. Brad Pitt is really strict and controlling, verging on the violent but the audience does not hate him i don't think because he is really good at the piano (also he is nice sometimes and wants the best for his sons in his cold, hard way). i found i pittied brad for missing out on opportunities to live his dreams. he gets fired from his job and stuff and takes his anger out on his family despite still loving them heaps.

me as brad pitt. massive ass jaw. thoughts ladiez??
another cool/funny thing is brad pitt's massive jaw. you think it is already big enough but then he pushes out his bottom teeth even more and twists his lips into a frown which makes him look even more 'masculine' and 'tough' and 'controlling'. here is my interpretation of brad pitt in 'the tree of life':

The freudian elements are hard to miss. the mother, Jessica Chastain is this beautiful, benevolent, graceful being, portrayed as even an angel. there is this bit where she floats underneath a tree. the son, Jack loves his mother, in fact when sean penn is reunited at the end with his family and others from his past the mother has not aged at all. maybe this is supposed to visually symbolic of 'her [inner] beauty never fading'. anyway jack wants to kill his dad there is a suspenseful scene where he contemplates releasing the jack (hehe) that is holding up the car brad pitt is working on, thus crushing him. he doesn't though. but anyway, he wants to kill his dad to be with his mum. he also breaks into a house and steals a sexy nightie thing and lays it on the bed. just when the scene can't get more sensual he runs away and throws it into the river.

i thought a lot about life and death and memory and the interpretation of events. that it isn't the event that matters so much as the feelings it creates. also that life is hard but we need each other. or something. i thought that if my child dies and my husband is emotionally cold towards me i would be really sad.

the end though i think was drawn out maybe too long. but maybe in some way it is similar to the way certain feelings or memories haunt us for a long time and never go away until they actually do and it feels good. i think sean penn felt good at the end of this film. i hope he did. i did.

the man next to me and roxie left his beanie behind so we gave it to the man who owns alice in videoland who was coordinating the screening. it seemed like a really warm beanie. i hope he found it again. i said bye to roxie and went home.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

nz international film festival in chch

The NZ international film festival has hit Christchurch. Want to think about it actually sort of hitting Christchurch. I feel like the film festival is slapping Christchurch in the face but not in a bad way, in a way that it is also saying 'hey christchurch, wake up', or something. Anyway, it is an exciting thing that is happening in the city so I thought it might be a cool thing to write a lil about the films I see, though not in same vein as the other 'reviews' or whatever I have written before. Or maybe. I don't know. I guess it depends on the film. Feel like they were particularly nasty though.  Kind of want to be nice.

There are lots I want to go to. I even have my parents car so I can drive to and from the cinema lots. It's going to be really expensive. Especially because movies and snacks are complementary items in my opinion. I'm getting really into lemonade so I think there will be a lot of that. And pretzels and hummus. It's funny because I work at the movies too but I can't get cheap stuff from this one. I also am looking forward to m&ms and gummy lollies.

I'm trying to poach this guy from one of my classes into going to the movies with me/not his real friends because he is really good at watching films. I think we have similar thought patterns when it comes to 'reading films'. Like really conceptual/philosophical or something. I hope he doesn't read this. (Sorry if you are reading this...)

Maybe I will get busy and forget to actually write. I dunno, that's a possibility. It's a thing that is happening anyway atm that is exciting for me/the city.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011


I made a thing. it's just all of those goat macros i made before but in one place at one time.

look at it here

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

How to let someone know how much they mean to you (or something)

Write them a poem
Hold their hand
Wipe away their tears
Wash their sheets for them
Desire them --
-- it makes them feel desired
Send them nice texts
Say goodnight and good morning
Take them on a trip around the world
Give them a butt massage
Trust them
Beat them at pokémon and then make them dinner
Let them beat you at pokémon but make it look like you really tried
Listen to them
Kiss their nose
Apologise if you get angry with them
Go on a trip to a remote place
Go swimming with them
Ask about their day
Eat a tub of ice cream and burp I love you before vomiting
Start running when you see them
(Not away from them though)
Be honest with them
Keep your promises
Use a photo of them as a bookmark
Write a story about them
Give them space if they need it
Be kind to them
Stand up for them
Kiss their cheeks
Let them see you fully naked
Say what you are thinking when you think it
Climb into their nose and down their throat and cuddle their heart and breathe in their lungs so they don’t have to
Ask them for help when you need it
Help when they need it
Send them presents
Bake them cakes
Tell them you love them and mean it
Never lie
Be patient and understanding even when maybe you don’t understand
Be calm around them
Believe in a higher being momentarily and send up a prayer or a wish to pass onto them so maybe they will feel a tingly sensation in their toes and be warmed up like stepping into the sun and think about you at the same time and associate you with those good thoughts/a deity
Be aware of their faults and accommodate that knowledge into your actions
Treat them like a friend as well as a lover
Give unconditionally
Make their life easier by knowing when to leave them alone
Reassure them that you care about them
Don’t let your actions contradict your words
Help them overcome their fears
Kiss them on the lips

I want to give you the whole world and beyond that. I want to give you the stars and the moon and handfuls of atoms like they are mini m&ms. I want to do other things, less romanticised things, things that exist and can exist and will exist. Let's go to the supermarket and buy mini m&ms. Can we go to New World? I like the lighting in there and the way it's organised. Let’s go to the movies and eat noodles from a box. Seems authentic. Seems real.

Friday, August 5, 2011

A list of cool stuff

  1. La Jetée 
  2. Paul Giamatti
  3. goats
  4. dates 
  5. love
  6. Chronique d'un été
  7. Alexander J. Allison 
  8. Blake Butler 
  9. Jimmy Chen
  10. Auckland 
  11. Hands Like Mirrors
  12. poems &
  13. stories
  14. getting parcels and letters in the post
  15. postcards too
  16. postcard projects 
  17. skype
  18. fudge cakes
  19. university 
  20. getting the good spot in the café on the stools by the window
  21. studying in the café
  22. watching people and writing emails
  23. being happy
  24. $2 coffee
  25. cinéma vertité paradox 
  26. snacks
  27. pretzels
  28. accents 
  29. the fire
  30. essays
  31. wearing pants
  32. having a belt
  33. Today & Tomorrow by Ofelia Hunt 
  34. Honour by Joanna Murray-Smith 
  35. Vessel by Brett Gallagher 
  36. Can you haunt me by M. Kitchell
  37. book swaps
  38. tiny chats
  39. roast vegetables 
  40. the film festival next week
  41. not hating my job
  42. Captain America being really funny 
  43. Harry Potter (again)
  44. 2D movies
  45. sleeping well
  46. wearing two cardigans to bed
  47. slippers
  48. nice people
  49. new friends
  50. hwb (always) 
  51. Alexander Payne 
  52. the sounds pigeons make
  53. my dad
  54. dad getting a new job
  55. mum and dad moving cities
  56. mum and dad being more in love than ever before: "we are so in sync with each other. we are an unstoppable team" - dad
  57. new hand gesture
  58. the lamb at uni
  59. the pony at uni
  60. the bunny at uni
  61. giving all the animals lil pats and saying "pat pat pat" 
  62. (reflexive pats)
  63. Matt moving out is the only sad thing
  64. Matt's new house is real good though
  65. Gina and Toulouse moving in
  66. Simba moving in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  67. hash brown smiley faces
  68. writing lists
  69. everything i dunno

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Potential by Ariel Schrag

I read this a while ago but I remember being excited about it after reading Awkward and Definition and writing a post about it so I should probably write something about the sequel as well. I really really enjoyed this comic. Ariel Schrag's drawing changes/has evolved a lot since Awkward and Definition. Potential is still in the same style and the same form, but there are these dream sequences that A&D doesn't have. The artwork gets fucking cool. Or it's just different. I think I prefer the artwork that is not the dream sequences; still more cartoon-y (I am bad at describing stuff I don't know much about) but it's nice to see how she experiments I suppose. Potential is a lot more sexier as one would expect from a 16 year old (I dunno, would you expect that???) and it is really sweet to see her fall in love with people and I dunno just deal with relationships. I want to deal with relationships like Ariel Schrag.

Some things that happen in the book:
  1. Ariel Schrag has a boyfriend
  2. Ariel Schrag gets a girlfriend called Sally
  3. Ariel Schrag loses her virginity to a boy
  4. She also loses her virginity to a girl (it's hard to tell which one happens first because she thinks at the time that it only counts when it is to a boy but maybe her views re. that have changed now, I dunno)
  5. Ariel Schrag is still really good at science 
  6. Heaps of girls and boys like Ariel Schrag 
  7. She makes new friends
  8. Ariel Schrag goes to gigs 
  9. The terms 'butch' and 'femme' come up and I think Ariel Schrag is nervous about categorization
  10. Ariel Schrag is particular about clothes.
  11. Ariel Schrag does not want to be the one to initiate sex all the time despite having a much higher sex drive than Sally, her partner
Usually I buy books from the Book Depository. Currently Likewise is 'unavailable' though. Likewise is the last book in this trilogy. It's a really big book too. I'm excited to read it. Another thing I did was email the woman who made the Ariel Schrag documentary because I wanted to buy a copy but she hasn't emailed me back. Seems like a bummer. My buddy Benjamin King commented on my last post with this link here. It's to her website. People should look at it if they want/didn't see it before.