Wednesday, July 20, 2011

A list about clothes I guess

In Auckland I want to wear
  1. Stripes. I have blue pin stripe shorts and a yellow stripey tee. Also I have a red and white stripey tee and a stripey orange and like navy thermal thing to wear under that so people don't see my boobs because the red thing is a bit loose. I have lots of other stripey tops/bottoms but I'm not taking everything I am only going for 5 days.
  2. Grey. I would wear all grey outfits if I could. I have a grey skirt and grey tee and grey tights and grey hat and grey shoes and grey cardigan. I probably won't wear the shoes because I can't fit them in my bag. 
  3. This is weird I don't even like clothes that much. 
  4. My watch.
  5. I just want to wear stripes on stripes and grey all the time. 
  6. Corduroy shorts.
  7. Corduroy shorts unlike stripey tees are stripey in form not adornment. Also soft/warm. Corduroy is a nice fabric unlike lace. Despite corduroy being a 'rigid form of velvet' I don't like velvet. I also don't like fur. Wool is nice though. Real into merino tops for underneath tees too.  I get cold easily.
  8. I want to wear brown clothes too but I don't have enough for a full brown outfit. Just shoes.
  9. If I wear only one colour then maybe it will be a bit like being invisible. 
  10. Black jeans. Even though they are a bit big I don't give a fuck. Would prefer people not to look at my butt anyway I think. Also this way from the back I will look like a boy. That might be a cool thing. Or not. I don't really know.
  11. Sorry. No one cares about what I want to wear. This was dumb. 
  12. Will have a grey hat with a brown bobble on too probably at all times. 
today dad told me that i wasn't a mistake i was conceived out of a moment of passion; he was drunk.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

i don't have to worry about unplanned pregnancy because my hot water bottle is genderless and made of rubber

Friday, July 15, 2011

i dreamt i was hugging a recent divorcee and had sex with my bike while riding it up a hill. i woke up cuddling my hot water bottle and really needing to pee

Thursday, July 14, 2011

sometimes i wish my hot water bottle would lie on the other side of the bed

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

me and my hot water bottle are so intimate that it doesn't wear a cover to bed anymore

Monday, July 11, 2011

hot water bottles are like people: the colder they get the closer you hold them

Sunday, July 10, 2011

i like hot water bottles more than electric blankets because i can hug them 

Thursday, July 7, 2011

I thought, 'is it raining or just a really wet mouse?'

Moon


Is the man in the moon meant to be comforting?
In the Maori legend it’s not a man but a woman who gets trapped in there after stubbing her toe and cursing the moon
In my pillow there are two girls whispering
They keep whispering I can’t hear them but it is
My pillow!
Please I just want to go to sleep

The man in the moon pats my head and
Sings me a lullaby 

There is a man patting my head and
singing me a lullaby 

Please I just want to go to sleep

my toes are bleeding

Monday, July 4, 2011

Is it symbolic that the poster of Freud above my bed keeps falling down, spitting thumbtacks into my sheets that still remain unfound? Id unno.

Friday, July 1, 2011

Some things about the last week and a half

  1. Ran away to Wellington
  2. Sat next to a whole rugby team and their trophy on the plane
  3. Left my laptop on the plane
  4. Went out for dinner 4+ times
  5. Ice cream sundae with caramel on top and hot fudge at the bottom
  6. Movies at the cinema:
  7. Super 8
  8. Catfish 
  9. (the people in the theatre with me were really great to share a movie with like really receptive but not obnoxious)
  10. Biutiful
  11. The art gallery with Tyne 
  12. 'Tender is the Night' exhibition
  13. There is a massive painting of Robert Plant in the R16 section
  14. Jeffrey Harris
  15. The reading room
  16. Jackson 
  17. 3 x-men movies with Jackson 
  18. Flight cancelled twice
  19. More Jackson
  20. Jackson's chapbook
  21. Key-lime pie 
  22. Peanut butter milkshake 
  23. A lot of exploring
  24. Fantasies about living in Wellington
  25. Carter Observatory
  26. Dinner with Colin
  27. Old anxieties and feelings of vast emptiness clawing at the ground trying not to fall into a black hole.
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  43. Wore my jacket in the cold and liked the cold a lot 
  44. Not having a job for 1 week
  45. Books:
  46. Willard and his bowling trophies
  47. The hawkline monster
  48. Girl with curious hair
  49. Saw Jos
  50. Went to shows
  51. Got a flight back home finally and had vegetarian Thai food for dinner with mum and dad while Simba sat on my knee
  52. Potential by Ariel Shrag
  53. Timmy's zine
  54. Today & Tomorrow by Ofelia Hunt 
  55. Dinner party
  56. 'B'
  57. The Maria Bamford Show
  58. Confessions of a dangerous mind
  59. Charlie Kaufman/Charlie Kaufman's humour
  60. Staring at fire and the feeling on my eyeballs.