Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Would anyone 'get' the title even if they saw it????

List of things I 'need' that would probably not make life any sweeter; only in dreams

(In no particular order)

  1. Ipod 
  2. Guitar 
  3. New hi hats
  4. New crash cymbal 
  5. New sneer
  6. New kick pedal 
  7. Duvet and sheets
  8. Multifunction printer
  9. Bike 
  10. MacBook Pro
  11. Unlimited flights to Auckland
  12. Job



This morning I ran and you wished hope you have a good day honey into my inbox. I would have given you a kiss but you’re hundreds of kilometres away so I took a Which Is Your Patronus quiz instead only the page didn’t load so I never found out. I want to talk to you tonight but I’m finding it hard to talk to anyone at the moment. Courtesy of the wedding. I dreamt I had two boyfriends and felt guilty. I couldn't even converse with my family. In the dream we were in Sydney and you had on a brown tweed jacket. I kind of started to resent them. I loved you more than the other guy though. The conversation was aeroplane air. I think I will make blackberry crumble today, not jam just so I don’t have to bike to the grocery store.  Stale and second-hand. I might put pears in it too. My brain has thrown up his arms in defeat after being pummelled with stones all night. He’s bruised and totally blank. I think this happens a lot; some kind of reverie rivalry. I should change my sleeping patterns to elude the enemy. Metaphors. I listened to Royal Headache and missed you with every chord. 

Friday, November 26, 2010

Listening to Richard Brautigan

The little arrow in the corner of the screen goes round and round and round and round.
Maybe I should click it again
But I already know it will end badly. 

Saturday, November 20, 2010


In the movies
Timing is key
Especially in the romantic ones.
It pretty much all falls down to timing,
Not the combination of people at all.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

The Alpaca Brothers said "hey man I hope you'll be alright" and I thought "same".

I applied for a job today. I had to write a cover letter outlining why I think they should hire me. I said I'm really good at walking like Niko Bellic. 

Autobiography (walls)

I am sitting at my oak desk
In my recently painted room: Spanish White.
It’s meant to create space and light and calm and happy.
I went for a run but I woke up too late when it was too hot so I had to stop and walk.
I had breakfast outside in the shade because I had no sunscreen on
I thought it would be better than sitting inside in the sun.
The room is completely empty but for the desk and the chair.
Two days ago there was a wasp trapped inside and slamming into the window
I opened it to let it out.
I found it dead on the carpet yesterday and just left it there.


Wednesday, November 17, 2010


In the night
I dreamt of you
And the earth shook
And I woke up.